21st August 2015
Should probably change the name of this blog now, turned 29 last week, it was such a strange day
I woke up to a message from my ex saying ‘Happy Birthday’ the first contact I’ve had for months, what the hell was I supposed to do with that! I messaged him back in an emotional stupor and said I miss him and the cat, to which he sent a mass apology for everything he put me through last year, explaining he was in a really dark place and if I can I should visit him before I go travelling.
For a few hours I lived in this dream world where I’d go and visit him and things would go back to how they were, then I suddenly thought that’s really not what I want! I’m going to Thailand on the 4th of November then travelling around for a few Months why the hell would I want to go back to a man that continuously lied to me for Months, did drugs behind my back and brought another girl into my bed? I have such a better life planned for myself than that!!!!!!
Today I found out he and the fat slag (sorry immature I know but I have to vent lol!) are officially a couple, this knocked me for six, I really wish people would stop telling me things about my ex as I really don’t need to know!!
I’ve now made a 5 year plan (I know these things never work out as planned but I need some kind of structure otherwise i’ll feel completely lost!)
Nov 4th – Go travelling, Thailand, Bali, Oz and New Zeland
Next Year –
Move to London get the perfect HR job
Buy own flat, paint it pink!
Meet extremely successful man who will treat me like a princess!
Settle down with said man have babies and lots of love and trust until death do us part (without the icky marriage part this time!)
Ok, so a little far fetched I know but dreaming’s all I have right now!
Just noticed this is the first blog I’ve written for Months! That must be a good sign as the blogs only come out when I’m angry!
I had a funny insight into the world of internet dating last week, started talking to this guy from a few towns away. First thing he asked was that I send him some dodgy pictures and you know what I actually did it! Felt kind of exhilarating! Its all so false though, took me ages to get in the right flattering position for pictures! I suddenly came to my senses when he kept asking me to Skype and even suggested meeting up for sex! I really don’t need that kind of weirdness in my life, I really need to take this time to focus on myself and the things I want to do! Girl Power and all that s**t!
Happy Friday all xxxx